I doubt you miss me. But I know I do and I still love u. Not doubt about my love for you but I have to leave n move on no matter how hard it is for me. I hope you are happier on the other side. Not sure if you actually did have feelings for me … but it’s ok cause I know I did, and actually lost myself in the process of tryna love u . I loved you more than myself. That I know and till I stop hurting I think only I can love n learn to trust agn. Till then I’ll be alone… patiently healing n mending to my broken heart.
The break has been healthy, I am coping well alone, I enjoy time alone now and things are clearer. I can appreciate myself and enjoy my work too. It made me realised tht I don’t need others to be happy and joyful. I just need God n myself… I think it has been really peaceful and although I still have many occasions I cry but I know each day it gets easier n better …as much as I wish u could have loved me … I know in my gut tht you weren’t the one for me… till the last day I had with u.
I think seeing you Tmr at dudu’s wedding will b tough on me but I am strong n I will get thru it. Sighs. I still rmb all the days I would dream of marrying u so tht it could soothe me to slp .. I guess tht was my issue and smtg I had to deal with… I can’t depend on solely a man for my happiness no matter what he has promised me… hope I don’t hold on to these pains n develop trust issues gg forward.
I forgive me, I forgive u. And I hope you forgive us too.
Love u very much … my dear cutie … my fav hooman.